the lyric rings over

love yourself ern

~3 years of my life i’ve had enough already i’m -almost- glad for the distraction (lol, really) it’s tiring i just want to sleep in and not make conversations just sew my comforters to my skin

i can’t finish a yakult bottle that is smaller than the size of my palm i don’t know what is going on

my circumscription of ‘intelligence’ and ‘success’ has grown so skewed i feel like its only purpose is to push me into a corner and then wait for me to retaliate, which by then is too late because i am crying and breaking down and the energy that i spend to build up my fight again is too much of a waste. i think this happens because i have a tendency to give myself in to the tides let it sway me.

there is no need for you to take on the expectations of the world and make them your burden to bear and live up to. everyone forgets this, everyone forgets that opinions are not fact and that opinions of the world are not important enough for you to be pinned down and constricted by. appreciating your own understanding of what you want and where/who you want to be, is the hardest thing to formalise and live out, but the most rewarding thing to accomplish.

and as much as i would like to profess that i am beyond what grades can measure, i know i will always peg my value to the value of the academic dollar, but i will resolve to make this of lesser magnitudes and occurrences. also i am thankful for the gumdrops of academic affirmation i received today. thank you God for answering my prayer. (i thought you couldn’t hear me through the panting from the 3km run last night)

have a productive reading week kids!