fuck this shit i can’t deal with it or you or the fact that the people i want most to be here for me aren’t.

so inept at putting BAM moments into words i just use the same few adjectives over and over: damn ‘amazing’ / ‘wonderful’ / ‘great’, with different number and permutations of exclamation marks and an occasional ’1′ sprinkled in between when the shift button isn’t pressed at the right time. so i guess all i really can say is that the past few weeks were really unbelievably memorable i am just floored by how how all this happying happened within 4-2.

bat

face

a four-week long whirlwind

(1) needs to stop

(2) needs to get me out of my own skin but not ‘out of my own skin’

while i try to

(1) desensitize

(2) detach

(3) build my own space

had crab bee hoon for family lunch because i was craving

hopped over to town to kill time with rad we walked almost the entire orchard road and ended up in the physics shelves in kino of course he was very excited especially when he found this he whatsapped khalie this picture of himself and wanted to buy it for me

bought a black ribboned hairband i dont look good in these photos you cant even tell i am wearing the said hairband because my hair is too black and uh unkempt

bought my own nail clipper because there is a leprechaun in my house who goes around gobbling nail clippers and hair pins. now my nails are short and clean just like how my grandma would love em.

watched The Clique: too embarrassing for screenshots

watched The Boat That Rocked and it….rocked

on friday i watched Coco Avant Chanel

and thursday went shopping with suhaidah and connie ho we spent a great afternoon together

and then met the atlas kids for dinner

(photo credits: syafiqah)

tomorrow i will be doing nothing